Chronic Illness & Everyday Worship
My physical therapist insisted that I have at least one massage per month. Although it’s expensive, I told her we would try for at least one thirty-minute massage per month. She said that with my back and joint problems that I absolutely needed this for my health.
I haven’t had a massage in a few years, because of the price. I know that they are really beneficial to my health, but aren’t covered by insurance. All my other therapies are covered, so I don’t hesitate to continue keep them up. Today I had a 30 minute session and I was determined to make the most of it.
When I arrived, I was having a dizzy spell and could barely stand. It was such a relief to get undressed and resting flat on the massage table. The room was a little too warm and the essential oil scent was starting to make me nauseated. After a few minutes the spell was over and I began to feel better. The therapist used unscented oil on my back. I made certain that she understood my conditions: Ehlers Danlos Syndrome, Scoliosis and that my shoulders were unstable. I felt this was enough since she would only work on my back today. She decided to not work too deep, which was just about perfect.
She did work on the knots in my neck and upper back area, though. These knots are always present and even without severe rubbing, the knots were much better. I began to feel better. I usually have to remind myself to relax during massage. Even with the new age music and dull lighting, my mind will spin with all of my problems or to-do list.
I thought I would pray, and thought about all my kid’s prayer needs. Then, I thought, “No, I’m going to pray for me.” I prayed for the massage to help me. Then I started to meditate on Scripture verses. All the verses that I could think of about thankfulness, salvation, everything. I mediated on hymns that I love and I began to worship God. Then I started focusing on the verse – I am fearfully and wonderfully made. This brought tears to my eyes. As I was laying there in pain, realizing that my body was so messed up and had so many health problems – and yet, I am fearfully and wonderfully made…just the way I’m designed to be.
I’m so thankful for God and for His wisdom.
I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well. Ps 139:14
@2016, copyright Lisa Ehrman